OFFICIALLY MOVED.
LINK TO NEW BLOG
http://www.portion-of-thyself.blogspot.com

alrighty,
thiis is FINALLY the 300th post.
lolz
yeah, after this i'll be moving to the new blog
and im posting now so tht i can post at my new blog tonite
lol thts cheating yeah i knw haha

anyways, i wun delete this blog tho.
there'll be a link from the new one to this one here.
uh huh =)


ok, watching sky of love now.
yups, miah introduced it and gave me the link
long time ago but im jus too lazy to load it and so im loading cum watching it now.
=.=

did bio report jus nw
havent finished yet.
gonna die alr luh
argh. nvm tht

on a good note, there bowling tmr and we'll be getting our jerseys
like finally.

and i jus realised tht there are more people reading my blog
than i thought there were. and these people dun tag
and i dunno whos really reading it and keeping it all a secretly and wat crap
so tag people... gosh..

anyways, abt the previous posts.
about the faking and stuffs, yeah, its all real
and i see people getting paranoid over them which i dun see
the need to because i wun say who im talking about
no matter what
so, what i mean is that theres no reason to be pissed or mad with you anyway
as in maybe its just me and my thinking
but maybe its not.
and that i still feel awkward talking to you although i don;t think u can sense it

well, i shall not end this blog with some dumb emo stuff,
i'll keep them for the new one

the last reply for this blog:

17/3/08
Shauna: dun worry so much abt the groupings. it'll be fine =D
yeah haha guess its working out now =)

Matt: hello hello. We're not in the same group, lucky you.
lol hahahahahahaha. yeah. im super lucky i guess hahaha =)

>Casper: hey yeah. lax. haha. matt's right.
haha yeah i knw =)

yingling: yay u see its gd to think of me;DD haha.great job la ur results are super gd and take care dun keep injuring urself<33 color="#33cc00">aiya. dun wry luh. im fine. thanks =)

18/3/08
Shaojie: ya ya, agreed please take care of yourself, not worth it if u cannot use them anymore, hahahas
haha thanks =)

Jane: yoyo!!y nv go my blog and tagg ar??haha..is the person from GESS?
haha. no luh. no one is GESS can make me feel like tht luh.



19/3/08
huanying: YO KAIWEN! i am back tagging your blog. don forget that i am an ARDENT FAN OF YOUR BLOG! WOOHOO~
haha yeah thanks arh now go to the new blog to tagg! =) haha

20/3/08
>Casper: argh. i bet i'm more emo than you now
yeah luh.. lax. i bet the other time i was more emo than u luh haha nvmnvm. jus lax. i think we're having somewhat the same problem...

21/3/08
txy: yo kaiwen.... here to TAGGED~ dun be to stress, k? haha... (:
haha yeah. thanks for taggin! = )
im nt stressed, dun wry. jus frustrated. xD

Shaojie: hey do u even tag on your tagboard
HAHA. i dun tag on my tagboard, but i reply tags de. haha

oreo: hello! : )
haha hihi its been a long time since i've heard from u.. :)


all i wanna say is 'thanks' to those who still read this blog and leave their tags yeah.
=)
so yeah, i'll be moving to the new blog from now on.
and i thought of the URL myself haha sorry casper. =)
but maybe i'll change it someday =D
THE NEW BLOG

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299th post
ive decided nt to quit LEP and
so i srsly gotta work much harder for
all my subjects. sadded =/
anyways,
urm nothing much. tmr's good friday, meaning that
theres no school and meaning tht i nid to catch up on LEP and stuffs
zzz
having bio ltr.
as in im so darn bored. =.=
enug abt lep... killing my brain cells ZzZ

erm
well, i kept the promise made to myself yesterday
uhhuh which i proud of.
i guess im nt gonna blog tht much once i get to 300 posts
and change my URL.
Like maybe once in 2 or 3 days or smt but i think its
gonna be damn hard cuz im too used to blogging SIGHS

having humans aft BS ltr.
to catch up wif watever i missed during bowling B Divs
damn hiong luh. haiz.
as in gonna cover 2 major topics in one day.
im so gonna die.


well. i still think u're faking it

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okays, so for the sake of ardent fans of this BORINGGG blog,
i shall try to stop posting super emo posts
maybe those nt so emo ones luh. haha.

crapp.
im damn confused now.
as in i dunno whether to quit LEP or not
goshh
like part of me wans to quit and the other half doesnt.
as in i dunno wat benefits there are.
and i thought i made up my mind yesterday,
but i came to school and started having second thoughts.
and now theres like so many suggestions and i feel like dying seriously
as in im nt gonna get influenced by those who doesnt or does quit
cus i think its like basically wats good for me and me alone
haiz. im dammit confused lorh

okays, nvm abt LEP for now.
had doubles B div today
rocked a lot. =) jus didnt really like bowling in the afternoon
anyways, jiaxin was great today haha =) yeah
her scores were quite consistent. haha gdgd xD
heard tht bowling jerseys were ready.
gonna get them dis saturday. lol haha
yarh, theres training this sat.
=)

had LA presentation tdy
yeah. din rly screw up..
then there was dis Bobo doll part haha xD
yups, guess ours was abit short?
but at least it wasnt as long as Jiaxin's grp
i mean theirs was good,
they covered a lot of stuff and talked abt a lot of stuff
and covered all the main points.
but i think theirs was abit long winded yeahs but nvm,
at least all the main points were there.


urm..
actually today wasnt a gd day other than B div
as in there were quite a lot of problems
like b4 B div, jiaxin and lorenzo left their bowling balls in mr ng's office
and he said he will bring it over
than when the game was about to start alr,
he havent came yet. zZz.
but he managed to come on time..
and kent forgot to bring his IC..
but tht was solved also.
the other huge problem was LEP
yeah. which distracted my on my third game
which affected me quite badly. which was not worth it at all.
but nvm

yeah, im trying not to type emo stuffs,
but i think i still hav to type this luh

well, other than those problems tdy,
i guess i seriously found it hard to talk
as in it was rather awkward
cause i think i can sense that it;s not full attention
u're giving, its as if u were faking it.
but i tried not to fake it tdy
and i think i sorta managed to. i guess so..
crapp.

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im supposed to slp now
cus i din nap
and i hav competition tmr
but nvm, im being a problem solver cum psychologist now

regarding the previous post,
i meant everything i said,
every single word of it
and its nt anyone from GESS
theres no one in GESS to make me feel tht way cmon
i broke the promise i made to myself tdy
but i cant possibly leave jus like tht
yes, im upset bout myself
cause i broke my own promise.
and it took a lot of determination to not break it
but i still did.
i guess i just cant leave u

today wasnt a good day
emoed alot
even now.
told myself not to blog but cant seem to.
damn upset.
im quitting LEP
yes, i am
after a lot of thought and a lot of -----
zz

i shall make myself the promise again tmr and see
if i can live up to it.

i meant everything i said,
and it still stands
and im still faking it through


i see no point in staying true anymore
what's the use?
its just a waste of my time

i think you're faking it also luh
cmon like im not important at all
don't waste ur effort,
don;t even bother bout me

i don't think u knw im talkig bout you anyway
i bet u'll be surprised if u knw tht it's always been you

i see no point in lying now
so just to clarify,
this has nothing to do with you, jiaxin
nor you, casper
nor anything to do with whatever happened during LA

Labels: Just a waste of my time isn't it

alrighty, im back home now.. and
im done with the Metamorphosis Casper wanted me to do =)
yays haha

met jane, vi, ei, billy, sean and norio
jus now
yups, never change at all, still as childish, still as sarcastic
or should i say MORE sarcastic
guess i lost the zest of being sarcastic alr? at least
i nid more time yeas?
sian and now i dno whether or not to quit LEP.
haiz.
wun talk about tht.

ohh, and now both the forth fingers on both hands hurt.
zzz
wlao... the one on the left was alr hurt like abt 3 weeks ago
and its nt healed yet
and now the one on my right hand has this weird looking blue-black
tht formed bcuz of today's competition.
=.= have no idea at all how i gt tht
but i heard serene gt it also
and it hurts luh... haiz. =(

going back to sch tmr
like finally.. haha
get to see all of u guys again yups haha =D


heyyo
blogging in Macdonalds nw while waiting for Jane
and the rest.zz my comp gonna run out of batt alr lar.
lol

anyway, bowling today was good,
played 6 games, wasnt as tired as i thought it would be..
haha scores rocked luhh hehe.
6 games
scores of
88, 101, 94, 121, 104, 123
yups
average of 105 yupps
haha quite pleased wif myself =)
yeah, wasnt so stressed out
-thinking of you luh yingling haha xD

anyway nid to thank brandon alotalot
yeah, he ent me the tape for smoother release
rocked big time, helped alot.
so i bought one roll for myself also
14 bucks but worth it luh,

ohh and i was in the same lane as elaine.
thoughti would be wif jiaxin but i guess mr.ng
changed the line-up
so the only time i rly got to knw
elaine btr was during camp when we were
in the same grp. but anyways, tdy was gd haha
we hardly talked, but we gave each other encouragment =)
like a high-five woud be a 'good job, well done'
and the other one was a like knock with our fists would be a 'nevermind, jiayou'
kinda thing. yeah and we had real funny telepathy la
as in we would hav strikes on the same frames and stop having strikes
also on the same frame haha


erm.
oni thing tht wasnt v.good today was the
chi and civics grouping
guess the chi. grupings were okay
but the civics one.. zzz
havent worked wif these people b4 so
im nt sure how it would turn out?
all i knw is wat i'vehead from the rest
i shall not make assumptions here...
but the groupings seriously brought down my mood by alot..
hmm. shall try nt to think bout it...
=((((

yeah, erm, wanna thank those people who helped me out alot
like my dad who stayed for almost the whole tournament and took pics yupp

and casper, for remembering to sms me haha which made memuch less nervous=)
and also for telling me bout the groupings xD

and yingling, for trying to cheer me up. haha =)

erm. yeahs, some of the pics tht my dad took
there are laods more but loads of them
are candid and sper unglam and im also lazy to upload the pics. so yeah
haha maybe some other time =)




well, i think i was right in a sense,
you din do what i thought you would
but whatever you said made me rethink AGAIN.
lol.
and now, im confused. zz -.-

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Alrighty, apart from all the emo stuff
today was fine haha LoL
well, i found my LONG LOST NEIGHBOUR! yesyes
haha
jiahui. mm hmm i still rmb u luh
somemore we acted in some kindergarten thinggy which involved some guns stuff
and i broke yours haha rmb? =)

feeling much btr
yups, im sorta okay now
went to nap jus now.
actually plan to sleep at 10pm today.
but i see all those ppl online on MSN
most of them all put to Busy status de larh
zz haiz. dun wanna disturb them also
bet they're chionging their hwk and stuffs





so yeah. im
quite bored now.
jus finished transferring the files
so now my tablet is loaded wif files larh zzz

hmm
i find that its hard to treat someone the same way
when you know more about them?
like as in. u dun wanna seem abnormal in the way u treat them
so u;ve gotta try all means to seem as normal as possible
cause u care about them, and u dun wan the rest to think
that theres something wrong.
i think that's whats tiring me out

tag replies:
15/3/08
Jane: jiayou le kaiwen!!!woo~~
haha yupps, thanks =)

>Casper: haha. ok. i got free 10000
>Casper: eh no. is 1000.
>Casper: haha paiseh.
gosh. i haven checked mine luhh. haizz

jiaxin(:: yoo
yoyo =)

>Casper: thanks but don't count on it.
lol i knw u will get it done somehow de larh haha xD
16/3/08
yingling: hey dun be emo yea?ur laopo will always be here to listen to ur woes
yeah=) i knw u'll be thr. i'll be thr if u wanna say anything also yeahs? but its v.difficult to say luh... yar, im nt used to saying it out xD nvm dun worry kays? <33

Jane: kai,EMO SUX! so dun be emo..there shldn be smt call emo at the 1st place..so smile
haha no worries. yeah. its very different now. eveything's changing =) aiya, dun worry =D

Jiahui: hi...saw yr tag...we were neighbours when we were still living in jurong east ave1.. we moved house when we were both in p3...still remember? X)
yeah! of course i rmb la. jus tht i din hav ur contact oni,, so din keep in touch.. yupps =)

jus realised tht i've been replying tags more often...
guess i hav nothing mch to blog abt
not nothing to blog abt, its like nt appropriate to blog it here...
as in, not meant to be read by some ppl. yeahs.
guess so..

erm.
B div's tmr
not feeling very excited somehow
maybe tmr i will.
like i said, supposed to sleep at 10pm so tht
i'll be more energised tmr
but yeah, cant seem to slp... =(

hmmm
well, yingling, if theres anything
jus find me kays? i'll listen and yeah,
tho i cant help much, guess i sorta understand how u feel
cause i;ve been through it before. yups.
yeah. i'll always be thr =)

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now you're making me wonder
are we talking about the same thing?
or maybe we're not?
i don't think i'll ever know
but from what i see, i think i know what you're
talking about, but then once again, the different issues,
keeps making me rethink.

ok, now im onto a different issue.
2 separate issues,
never the same but always been there

seriously,
i can't take the way you do things anymore,
yes, i've learnt a lot from you
but i just cannot stand the way you treat us
yeah, you're tired huh?
but still, it's not right
we're taking it as it comes
not only me
ever since that day, we knew everything was about to change
we tolerated, we tried to adapt to that kind of life
yes, and you thought we were okay?
well, yeah, everyone around us thought we were okay
no one knew i guess
have u ever wondered that how we act now, what we say now,
the way we do things, ar all affected by you and what happened that day?
that day, until now
nothing's changed
including me



feeling much better since yesterday.
yupps
talked to miah
fantastic listening ear =)
thanks loads

changed my perception of alot of things
yeah. wun show them luh, but at least
deep in my heart i knw.

anyways, today;s practically staying at home
actually supposed to go out and eat lunch
to celebrate my aunt's bdae but she was lazy
to go out.. zzz
lol
so we bought stuff back home to eat
yup, they bought crabs luh
haha damn nice xD

and now im busy transferring and backing up all the files from
my other laptop into the tablet cause my mom;s gonna re format
the other laptop. yupps =)

ohh and my mom found a blog belonging to my old neighbour.
whom i dunno also
cause her blog din state her name or watsoever
and she claimed to be a childhood friend worh..
so yeahs....
erm still trying to find out who she is..
=)

short post. probably will post another one
ltr this evening
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